‘I am so Happy !’

I see the faded writing, dated oh !  so long ago ;1
                        
                        The clear round text is fairly traced by childish fingers slow ;2
                        
                        ’Tis but a simple record of inconstant hopes and fears,3
                        
                        But one short sentence written there I blot with falling tears.4
                        It is this— ‘ I am so happy.’ But twenty years have flown5
                        
                        Since those pleasant words were writ to a loving playmate gone ;6
                        
                        This is the hand that traced them, they were innocent and true,7
                        
                        This is the heart so buoyant then, as rosy moments flew.8
                        I gaze upon the characters, I ponder o’er them yet ;9
                        
                        The many intervening years I struggle to forget ;10
                        
                        Oh but to realise them now for one short fleeting hour,11
                        
                        The dark, dark shadows of this life ceasing a while to lour !12
                        ‘ I am so happy’—well-a-day !  those strange and thrilling words13
                        
                        Sound soft and sweetly as the song of wild and woodland birds,14
                        
                        In twilight glades at evening fall, when, ’mid the shiv’ring leaves,15
                        
                        A whispering of import sad our busy fancy weaves.16
                        May I not be a child once more ?  My second birth must be17
                        
                        No day-dream of a sickly mind, but blest reality :18
                        
                        Then, then again those glorious words with truth I may indite—19
                        
                        ‘ I am so happy’—traced within in characters of light !20